yesterday Sawyer was 100 days old.
we first learned about the celebration of 'Baek-Il' (100 days) during our pre-baby days in Korea. historically, it's an acknowledgement of survival. but personally, for us, it's an acknowledgement of Sawyer's first year of life (because pregnancy + 100 days is approximately one year on from conception).
and so, in a way, i like to quietly think of yesterday as being his First Year Day.
last night i read over 3 emails i'd sent to myself at the very start of Sawyer's pregnancy but had never opened and re-read after sending. i found the feelings i wrote about only a few days after i found out we were pregnant, so foreign to how i feel today, a year later, having held Sawyer, kissed him and nursed him, felt his skin and his breath, heard his cry and his giggle, i can say there is truly only joy and gratefulness left.
later that afternoon we went out to my parents' place and were able to share the sun setting on this day. it was perfect.
happy one year of living our treasured no.5